// Somewhere In Paris

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

IHATEMYSELF :X

i did somethings real very wrong since sunday.

im suppose dun send da msg but i sent .

soo, xxx`s soo serious bout da msg but im not.

i told my frens, they asked me dun play till too guo fen.

till ytd nite. i was real soo scared. really..

scared dat xxx will angry & dun choi me anymore.

finally, i told xxx da truth ytd nite.

xxx was really very sad & angry. i can feel it : (

xxx: really? haiz.. so dissapoint la..

me: sorry sorry sorry! haiyur, you angry edy ar? sorry[ i try to explain everythings to xxx]

xxx: ya la.. angry u d la.. dun choi u d.. u no need reply d..

o.O MY HEARtBROKEN .

i duno what should i do dat moment

& duno what can i do?

i started to blame on myself. its actually really is my fault. sorry!

so, i was tryna to tell xxx i dun wana prank xxx de but is just cus some reason.

xxx replied one is : me didn angry la.. just hate myself y me so stupid believe u.."

o.O HURT ME MORE MORE MORE DEEP.

i was keep sending xxx msg.

i sent almost 6 msg to xxx..

a few minutes later.

xxx: me ntn la.. i wan2 bath d o.. tata..

T-T i real duno what can i do liao, just hope it will be okay soon.

then, sent xxx one more msg..

feel very tired, stress, worry, scared, sleepy.

so, i slept.

around 5:30am today, i suddenly woke up & finding my fone.

checked it. xxx dint reply T-T

finally, i cried :X

lols. very stupid hor? haha, i scared i will lost onemore friend mah

hence, i msg-ed xxx " heyy, are we still friend?"

went sch, moodless. fiona & meikei was trying to cheer me up when ceramah but they couldnt.

willwin asked me to stop worrying, but i cant control myself.

sorry to ya all :'(

we were dicussing what should i do.

meikei asked me to call xxx for apology, fiona agreed too.

but im soo timid to do dat. haihs..

so i plan to buy a "apology gift" for xxx . hehe ..

MOODLESS.

but da two periods before sch finish. me & my frens were gone crazy.

my mood is nt dat bad liao. they cheer me up. thanks ya! love you all : D

me & my frens did very stupid things in da class & chit chat..

hehe.. cus ng poh sim was in da class, haha ..

play play play. . sch finish edy.

on da way going back home, my heart beats jump sodamn fast.

i was hoping dat xxx will reply my msg.

went in house, my mum talk talk talk nonsense.

i just answered her " ohhhhh"

den straight go upstair & checked my fone.

i saw one miss called -.- frm my daddy.

& another one msg :D from xxx

xxx : hmm.. yaya.. sure.. hmm.. me ntn d la..

i was still worry, so asked..

me : real anot? if you angry and want to scold me, scold bah.. me okayyy de.

xxx: no la.. sa gua.. u think 2 much d.. although me really vry dissapoint ytd but after i slp then all ya ntn d o..

& finally he real dint angry oh~

hohohoho, i noe xxx is not dat small gas de. but xxx real very dissapoint cus i trick xxx. sorry ar!